Why Do I Push People Away When They Get Close? | Mariya Garnet
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There's a pattern that shows up in therapy that can take a while to name, because naming it requires admitting something that's embarrassing to admit: you want closeness, and you also reliably move away from it. The closer someone gets, the more urgent the impulse to create distance, through conflict, through withdrawal, through finding something wrong with them that wasn't wrong before.
It's not that you don't want connection. Usually the opposite is true. But the approach of real intimacy triggers something in the nervous system that functions like alarm.
Why closeness activates a threat response
For many people who grew up in environments where attachment figures were also sources of unpredictability, where closeness was sometimes comforting and sometimes dangerous, or where emotional needs consistently went unmet, the nervous system learned to associate intimacy with risk. Not consciously. The learning happens below language, in the part of the system that manages survival.
If you're also noticing that you tend to end up in the same relational dynamic with different people , these two patterns usually come from the same place.
What that looks like in adult relationships is that when someone actually gets close, when they know you, when they're consistent, when the relationship starts to feel real, the nervous system registers this not as safety but as exposure. And the body mobilizes to protect against it.
How it shows up
The particular shape it takes varies. Some people pick fights over small things when a relationship starts to deepen. Some find reasons why this person isn't quite right. Some simply go cold, become less available, less warm, less present without being able to explain why. Some create physical or logistical distance. Some end relationships that were working.
What they often share is that the distancing happens in response to something good, a moment of real connection, a declaration, a deepening of trust. This is confusing to the person doing it and confusing to the people around them. It doesn't look like fear from the outside. It often doesn't feel like fear from the inside. It just feels like a reason to leave.
The gap between wanting and tolerating
There's an important distinction between wanting closeness and being able to tolerate it. Most people in this situation want connection genuinely. But there's a ceiling on what the nervous system can hold before it moves toward self-protection.
That ceiling usually got set early, in the texture of early attachment relationships, in how reliably needs were met, in how safe it was to depend on someone. And it doesn't update automatically when circumstances change. You can be in a genuinely safe relationship with a genuinely available person and still hit the ceiling.
The work in therapy isn't about convincing yourself to want connection more. It's about helping the nervous system update its sense of what closeness means, slowly, and in a context where closeness itself is safe.
What therapy addresses
Somatic approaches work with this at the level where the pattern lives, in the body's habitual responses, not just in the cognitive understanding of why the pattern exists. Most people who push others away understand perfectly well why they do it. The understanding doesn't change the response. What changes things is working at the level of the nervous system's sense of threat, building a different felt experience of what it's like when someone knows you and stays.
If you're in Ontario and this describes something in your relationships, I work with this regularly. A consultation is a low-stakes first step.
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Frequently asked questions
Attachment patterns and trauma responses exist on a spectrum and often overlap. What people call avoidant attachment in popular psychology is often, at its more intense end, a well-organized nervous system response to early relational experiences that made closeness unpredictable or unsafe. Whether it's serious is less useful than whether it's causing you difficulty, and if it is, it's workable.
Fear doesn't always register as fear in the body. For people who learned early on that feeling afraid wasn't safe or useful, the alarm can convert into irritability, numbness, a sudden desire for space, or a cognitive process that finds reasons why this person isn't right. It's worth being curious about what happens in your body right before you pull back.
It can change, but it changes through the nervous system, not through willpower or good intentions. The pattern is a response to an environment; when the environment changes in a sustained way, and the nervous system can register that change, the response shifts. Therapy provides a context where that can happen.
That's usually what makes this painful rather than just inconvenient. The people who get closest are the ones who trigger the most alarm, because closeness with someone who matters raises the stakes. Working with this is about making room for both things at once, the genuine caring and the very old response that says this much closeness isn't safe.
Mariya Garnet is a Registered Psychotherapist (Qualifying) in Ontario. She works online with adults navigating complex trauma, childhood emotional neglect , and the patterns that form when early life doesn't provide what the nervous system needed. You can learn more at silverowltherapy.ca or book a consultation to see if this work fits.
